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I'm not strong enough to stay away.
Can't run from you,
I just run back to you.
Like a moth I'm drawn into your flame,
Say my name, but it's not the same.
You look in my eyes I'm stripped of my pride.
And my soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees.
It's killin' me when you're away,
And I wanna leave and I wanna stay.
I'm so confused,
So hard to choose
Between the pleasure and the pain.
And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.
Even if I try to win the fight,
My heart would overrule my mind,
And I'm not strong enough to stay away
There's nothing I can do
My heart is chained to you
And I can't get free
Look what this love's done to me.
Can't run from you,
I just run back to you.
Like a moth I'm drawn into your flame,
Say my name, but it's not the same.
You look in my eyes I'm stripped of my pride.
And my soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees.
It's killin' me when you're away,
And I wanna leave and I wanna stay.
I'm so confused,
So hard to choose
Between the pleasure and the pain.
And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right.
Even if I try to win the fight,
My heart would overrule my mind,
And I'm not strong enough to stay away
There's nothing I can do
My heart is chained to you
And I can't get free
Look what this love's done to me.
(c) Not Strong Enough - Apocalyptica feat. Brent Smith
Okay. I have to tell you about That Bastard, 'cause I just can't hold it back anymore. Just after our last meeting I can't stop thinking of him.
The last time I saw him I was scared to death. He was in rage, he was demonic, he was terrifying.. yet so beuatiful.
I hate him. If I was told I can kill him without being punished, I'd do that. But If I was told I can sleep with him without anyone knowing - I'd do that.
How I hate having this feeling. Oh, how I hate this.
Why this life is so complicated? Why am I unable to understand my own fucking heart?
I just hate him. And love him. He did those things to me - yet I hadn't forgot my feelings. Why? What to do with all this love?
Please someone. Just save me from this.
At this rate, I'm close to asking for a date.
Oh no.
UPD
Why am I always writing you a lot about myself? About my feelings?.. I bet it freaks you out. The thing is, I just have literally no one to talk with.
Sadly, but he is the only one who knows my everything. By the way, he's an interesting person to talk with - when he isn't doing his sadistic stuff. Too bold, rude and straight maybe. But he's smart and always speking his mind.
And me - I hate running away from problems. I must tell him how I feel and ask for advice. I will confess my love and hate for him. Maybe I'll stop feeling so bad then. The only thing I can do now to save myself from these dual feelings - are expressing them. That's what I decided.
